My tiny little bitty baby boy turns 18 today.
You know what that means for a mom- reflection and introspection.
Laughter at the antics and guilt because I made more than the usual mistakes-he’s my first. And I’m foolish.
Tears for the passage of time that carries my boy away into the big scary world.
Joy for the maturity I see growing in him.
And always, the questions- is he prepared? Does he really know how to do this life thing independently or will he die of food poisoning from mishandled chicken? Does he know I love him, but God loves him immeasurably more? Will he call his dad and me when he needs us, and will he call on his Heavenly Father day by day, moment by moment?
I don’t know. And in the coming weeks, there will be nothing I can do to stop this boy-turned-man from launching out on his own, captain of his own ship. Truthfully, I don’t really want to stop him. This is our job- love him, teach him, point him to Jesus and teach him to keep eternity in his heart then- let him go.

Father, I can never thank you enough for allowing me to be mom to Graeson. I am so sorry for my foolishness, stubbornness, and pride that hindered our path. Thank you for working in his life through me and his dad, so many beautiful godly friends and family, even strangers.
But Father, thank you for being God to this boy from the day he was conceived. I have trusted that you are loving him and working in his life regardless of our failings- it’s the only thing that got me through my doubts and fears.
Now as he turns 18 and takes this next step of maturity toward independence I pray. I just pray all the words I have and let the Spirit take it from here, because my heart is too full and my mind is too limited.
May he always love you and seek you.
May he always know we love him and will work for his good.
May his path be straight when he is walking according to your word, and may the obstacles be insurmountable when he is walking away.
May he be surrounded by others who point him to you and your word, who speak love freely and truth boldly. May he be that person in the lives of others.
May he be able to accept correction with humility, growing closer to you.
May he find ways to use his gifts with passion in service of your kingdom, both in a career and in leisure.
May he choose friends wisely.
May he choose his wife through your guidance.
May I be the mom he needs to be in the coming weeks, months and years.
I pray Graeson will know the riches of your glory, that you would strengthen him in his inner man through the power of your Spirit so that Christ will dwell in his heart through faith. I pray that he, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which is greater than all knowledge, that he may be filled with your life and power and love. (from Eph 3:14-19) #prayersformychildren #littlebittybabyboyturns18